At weeks end

So after much deliberation and a great deal of input I have come to the conclusion that I have used entirely too much energy concerning someone who has no regard for compassion. I have given a lot of thought to the whole thing, really contemplated how I feel about friends and good people vs. bad people and to be honest it all came down to one little statement. "Mommy you're the best for loving me."
I realized that it doesn't really matter what people chose to do in their lives all of us are going to make mistakes. Offenses have been made against me, people have hurt my feeling and I know that I have hurt others at various points in my life. But above all I still knew who I truly loved and who really loved me.

There are people in our lives who will test us, but it's not those tests but rather what we learn form those test that it important. And yes I know that sound ridiculously cliche but it's true. I have learned that it doesn't really matter who people are or what they do, at some point they will hurt you, no one in this life is going to avoid it. Now I know you are probably all sitting there saying to yourselves 'oh come on, don't be so cynical about it, there are good people out there.' And I'm not disagreeing with that and I do believe that there are, but in one way or another they will. Whether it is a friend who steals from you, family that doesn't call for your birthday, a teacher that cheats you out of a grade that you felt you deserved, a job that fires you, and the list goes on. But it's bound to happen and the sooner we can accept it the sooner we have that energy to move on with and dedicate to the people and tasks in life that deserve it.

On a happier note my little one is too freaking cute! We went over to Ema's today and brought over some toys for bean to play with, she starts building a castle in the kitchen but then I think realized she had only brought the single post legos; well mega blocks but same difference, and so she stacked them all on top of one another. So she gets it all assembled, brings it to the table and says "Ema look at your castle! I made it for you because I love you!" All with this exceptionally high pitched excited tone. so Ema tells her it looks more like a tower, to which she answers "No Ema a made you a cute tower because I love you!" Which was much more of a scream. Almost as though she had to clarify, and they expression on her face was too funny. She had this face of determination like she was going to make us understand no matter what. She proceeded to take the tower, knock it down and then say that she was going to color instead because she wanted to draw mommy and daddy and "bear moosing and my Guinness dog." Of course Ema looks at me trying to understand the 'bear moosing' and when I tried to explain it I was corrected by little one, "No mommy she is my bear moosing because she is my Honey bear and she is my moosing so she is my bear moosing." With hands on her hips and head cocked. At which point I could help but laugh and just love that little kid.
So once again I saw light in people and the fact that there are people in the world who deserve my energy, time and attention, and there are those who don't. Now it's just time to weed out the mess and love the right people.